maybe.

it has not been a good week, for the most part. in fact, it has been hellish. my initial numbness gave way to a growing sense of utter loss. i understood their feelings, to a degree, but nothing in my entire life could have prepared me for the cruelty, and the speed at which that cruelty was displayed.

something precious had been destroyed. it would never be able to be renewed. i had lost it forever.

tonight, however, someone i trust did something unexpected that showed me a glimmer at the edge of my vision. it was a little silver strand of spider's thread, and when i looked down and traced its path, i realized it lead to me. i was holding it in my hand.

i don't know where it leads. i don't know if it's strong enough to not eventually snap. but i think i'll hang on to it, and wait, and see.