- i think i was starting to fade.
i could never totally give up this place, but the bonds it lay on me were starting to slacken. i hovered in the shadows, becoming a shadow myself, slipping around the edges of the world we have created here. i was in danger of reverting to the lurker i was when this all started.
and then, he reeled me back in. he yanked on the thread that tethers me to this place and he fixed it fast. i don't know why he did it, and it doesn't really matter why, whether he was motivated by whimsy or kindness, because the effect it has had on me is so welcome, and so solid.
this place has become a part of me. for good or for ill, irregardless that it is largely a society of the mind and heart, this place lives in me. and because of what he did, now i'm a part of it, too. my belief in this place is reinvigorated. my belief in my belonging here is reinvigorated.
he pulled me back in, he gave me back to our world, and gave my friends back to me, and i am wholly embraced by it all.
everyone needs someplace to belong to.
i am reassured that i belong here.
4 comments:
he sure did make sure you belong!
and everyone who logs in gets reminded of you too!!
hey, please tell me you said that with a
:D
not a
D:
*eep*
hehe yes I did. I just got the feeling, that you´ll read it and that I should wave to you before I leave.
cool that you saw it! :)
Hello TJ! What a beautiful post!
I just wanted to drop in and say WOO-HOO for your clean bill of health!!!! Being put on a yearly check up schedule must have had you on Cloud Nine!
I'm on a 5 year schedule for Colonoscopies now!!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!
Blood work is still every 4 months; but that's for CRT/Heart related risk. Darn genetics ;-)
I hope to catch up to you soon!
Hugs and Love,
Wendy
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