- i saw my dad today.
oh, i knew it wasn't him, of course. but the man standing at the reference desk looked so much like him, it was easy to pretend i was really seeing my father. i glanced at him repeatedly, indulging myself in the notion that dad was visiting my library.
question answered, he went off to a distant corner of the library, and i returned to my shelving. but then i realized, suddenly, sharply -- dad will never see where i work, will never surprise me by showing up unannounced.
i shelved the resulting pang in the depths of my heart, and returned to shelving children's christmas books.
after work, walking through the parking lot on my way to the bus stop, i spotted a bright penny. it was wet from the rain, and sparkled. i knelt to pick it up, and saw that it was heads up. not every penny i pick up reminds me of dad and his habit of picking up heads up pennies -- i pick them all up, after all -- but this one was undeniably a penny from dad. it made me happy, so happy that as i stood up, i mimed a kiss to the penny and smiled at the sky. when i looked down again, a second penny caught my eye. i grinned, knelt, picked it up, and stood -- and saw a third shiny penny, right at my foot!
i couldn't help it, i laughed. "ok, dad!" i thought in his direction, "i get it! i love you, too!"
three bright heads up pennies, surprising me by showing up unannounced at work. i carried them in my hand all the way to the bus stop.
fathers are always full of tricks.
15 comments:
TJ, that was beautiful.
I know that felings you describe. There are many times I want to talk to my dad. It is heart breaking to realise that you can't ever again.
That penny was a sign, I think I have told you about how we get ladybirds from dad and gran. You cherish those signs, I hope they make you smile, I know they make me smile.
Toujours,
Wow!
That is wonderful and bittersweet, at the same time.
I do believe they are still with us, and give signs.
take care
`sc
TJ that is the most wonderful thing.
What a beautiful story.
I feel half smily and half teary!
I am so sure there are many times messages are left for us, and he must've really wanted you to know he was there.
I remember you saying about you're dad and pennies, what a touching reminder.
I wasn't about much today but I looked to see if you'd left a message to post to Mayo for you.
Just so you know, I'll always try to check
xx
ok that should be your not you're
it's getting late!
TJ, your talent astounds me, what an amazing post, really my dear!
As for your comment on my blog, thank you, but thinking about it, am I cute, of just plain weird? lol
much love, xoxo cupcake
Not at all hun! I'll send an email explaining. :)
xoxo cupcake
Aww aren't you gorgeous? and don't worry, I say and do the darnedest things myself!
All lesser dumbasses must bow down to me! lol
*hugs*
Well I'm going out for a bit now, so take care!!
*hugs again*
xoxo cupcake
TJ I saw 12 comments and thought wow! and then saw your spelling errors - lol
you do need more coffee!
TJ,
I loved reading this. It gave me hope and faith. In what I do not know, but it made me all warm and tingling.
I love you sweetie;
xoxo<3
- master of hug fu
- 007
Level Seven is such a spectacular stage. At the rate you're going, you'll be at Level Twelve in no time.
I love you lots my little bumble bee!
xoxo;
- 007
<3
Toujours, I'm soo happy to know you! Just for being so great, how about we bump you up to Stage 9?!
I love you soo fricken much! Thanks for the comment on my blog. Lol. The test was actually hard once I started thinking about it. Like I told Mayo, sometimes, I over think.
Anyways, I hope I catch you around BlogBelieve later!!
xoxo;
-007
<3
That was just beautiful, Toujours. He will always be with you.
Thank you so much for the kind words you left at our blog, you don't know how much they meant to us.
As for that beachfront property, well, can we think about it, and get back to you? See, we're thinking of investing in a ice making company in Alaska... :)
Love you,
L. (and J.)
thats beautiful toujours, i know exactly what you felt whilst writing this.
and off subject - how chuffed i am for you!!
feeling the mayo love!
good on you!
I came here to see f you had a bigger version of your pic that Mayo posted and I found this entry, hope you don't mind if I respond.
but then i realized, suddenly, sharply -- dad will never see where i work, will never surprise me by showing up unannounced.
This has already been proven wrong. ^_^
I can't believe you said "pennies." My grandfather, nine years gone (we were close,) always throws pennies. I don't tell this to many people 'cause it's so weird. but pennies mysteriously fell from the sky at his wake which was at my parents' house.
I remember reading somewhere that that is a common form of communication.
I hope this hasn't freaked you out of mad eyou upset but I couldn't believe when you wrote that. ^_^
Toujours,
I smiled, when I opened
mayonaise's blog and saw
your drawing on the page.
I am glad he appreciates
your talent and effort.
`sc
It is cute, too.
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