- it's uncertainty time again: no job, no place to stay beyond this week. my resources are thin on the ground.
i'm living with this weird mixture of despair and hope. i got myself into this situation, the failures of it are mine; i should have known i couldn't make it. but i also feel like if i can just somehow hang on, things will work out.
i am a pioneer of my own frontier, carving my way through the dark wood toward a new home, thinking longingly of the companionship and warmth of the friends in the world i left behind, hoping i can create a place for myself where i can be in contact with them again, but i can only keep on.
i can only go forward.
keep me in your thoughts and prayers as i go, my friends, and i'll write again from the next outpost (thank goodness for the pony express of the public library).
p.s. redrum, elena told me about your blog being gone. have you decided to say good-bye to blogbelieve? you know i'll miss you --- i consider you one of my close friends here in this made-up world. i always hoped we would become friends in the real one, too. but if you've decided it's time for you to go, all i can do is wish you well, and thank you for all your kindnesses to me. i'm glad i got to know you, and i hope i'll hear from you again sometime. take care of yourself, you're something special.
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It's Me
Where there is a will, there is a way.
Pound on every door, on every street....there has to be other jobs available.
Do NOT give up!!!
Hang on and hang in, TJ. If there's anyone that can make it work, I know it's you.
Happy New Year.
I'm sorry that I haven't visited before now, but I can become such an emo-babbling mess and that's not what you need at all.
You are missed probably more than you even realize, but missing you is okay because there is always comfort in knowing that you are out there with grit, guts, and determination trying to make life happen.
I admire you for that, TJ. I always have.
Hi TJ :)
How've you been? Are you back in Seattle? I've still got the mugs & trinket box set aside for you if you would still like to have them. Let me know if you're settled & I'll mail them along to you.
TJ,
You're young, and independent. You have the ability to make friends freely, out of strangers. Something is going to turn your way soon.
And like Socky said, yes, you are missed more than you realise. You are often in my thoughts, as you make your way along this new path.
It will happen. =)
hey TJ!!
i hope things are looking up for you?
take care of yourself and keep positive.
fingers crossed. i am sending you all the lucky vibes i can muster!
Oh my.
We can never end up on the wrong path.... I am now eager to see where and what the destination to this journey will be.
I also came here to say thank you. A long while back, you said something to me along the lines of 'be gentle to yourself.'
At the time I can't even express the violent reaction I had to your statement. Completely illogical. But I listened and I've been letting in sink in.
Thank you.
posting here to say thank you all, thank you for coming here and letting me know i'm still a part of this weird little world even though i'm not able to participate. it means so much to me to hop online and see messages here at my blog.
maybe it's silly, i don't know (and don't much care if it is, tbh), but this is still where my heart's family resides.
take care, and much love.
♥
hey TJ!! just having a wander and thought i'd pop in to see if you are OK?
i hope you are?
take care TJ!
♥
It’s Me
It will never work until you have faith in yourself.
It will take time
How long……how long……how long?
No one knows
Will I make it this time?
No one knows
Try something different
The past has proven unsuccessful
Reach out for help…for it might not always be there
You can do it
Hiya Tj!
I just wanted to say, no matter how hard things get for you, I have no doubt that you will get all that you need and want in life. I just sort of know that about you. So please don't give up. The journey is the most important part right? Makes you see the destination clearer and gives you the desire and motivation to get there. So Odysseusm keep sailing your home is waiting for you. :p
Love to you Tj <3
It's all for the best.
Thank you, too.
thank you for stopping by, redrum. it is so good to see your...letter in my inbox. *grin*
speaking from my point of view, i have to say i disagree, but i trust that you made the best decision for yourself.
i do hope you won't be a stranger, though.
take care.
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