- none of the requests for help i sent out have been answered.
i have been trying to pretend that there isn't a monster standing behind me, but today i cannot deny that i can feel the breath from it's gaping maw.
i never thought that i would be in this situation. i know how to manage money, i'm a responsible person, i don't drink, do drugs, or gamble. still, i'm broke. i think i'll probably be homeless by the end of the month.
when i was a teenager, i used to joke about wanting to grow up to be a bag-lady, because my style at the time was so scruffy. i saw one such at a bus stop this past week, and wondered if i was looking what i would soon become.
i just don't know.
i've made such a mess of things and now it's time to pay, and i don't know what the cost is truly going to be.
i'm scared.
5 comments:
toujors, what a terrible situation to be in. is there no family you could ask? im sorry if you have already stated this. i havent really been around the blogs recently so forgive my lack of knowledge for your situaution :(
Tj I am feeling so bad for you. There is nothing I can do but offer moral support, and you have that from me in abundance. You must be so scared and worried, but just like you to feel you need to be there for others.
Just because you've made some mistakes doesn't mean you are a failure as a person. I know you don't believe that actions necessarily mean a person has changed inside.
Do what you can to prepare, and be ready to start again, I'm sure you'll be able to manage somehow. It's always darkest before dawn and I hope your dawn comes real soon.
I'm praying for you honey.
Feel free to write me the longest emails ever, I'll always read them and know that you are a lovely,intelligent,caring person even though you are in a bad situation, you continue to shine and care so much about others and that is amazing.
Everyone will be there for you,just as you are for everyone else.
love Ergo
tj,
Just know that I'm thinking about you and hoping for the best.
If you ever just want to hang out and talk, send me an email and I will come to your blog or you can come to mine.
I'm not sure we can figure anything out, but we'll give it a shot.
Oh sweetie, can you crash on someones sofa?
These things can happen to anyone; the wrong sequence of events, you know!
I hope you work things out; e-mail me if you want to talk anything through.
I saw your comment at Mayo's. You have not done anything to deserve it; don't be hard on yourself, sweetie! Everyone makes mistakes.
Thinking of you!
Oh TJ, I don't know what to say sweetie. I wish I could help physically but all I can do is be here for you.
What a fucking shitty time of year for this to be happening. Not that there is ever a good time but this makes it worse.
Do you know where you can stay if the worse comes to the worst?
I'm here if you need a shoulder to cry on. Honestly I deal with other people's problems much better than my own.
All my love and my thoughts are going out to you.
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