walking the path blindfolded.

i have always had an inner voice. my mother told me about it when i was a child, and i have always heard it. it is my jiminy cricket, my heart's voice, my gods' whisper. in all things, i have walked the path of my life with my inner voice as my primary guide.

turning over my path to the fates is both a departure from that, and a continuation of it. i am willingly allowing the path to unfold at my feet without my direction, and yet, to do so, i must listen closer to my inner voice than ever before. my intuition is crucial now.

i am walking forward, a cloth tied about my face. my hands are outstretched, and my heart open and listening. i am a follower. i am being led.

i am happier than i have ever been.

and my destination is unknown, the outcome of this leap away from the charted world wholly a gift yet to be unwrapped. whatever the fates give me in the end, it will be good. it will be wonderful. it will be the right thing and the best thing for me. i believe this, i trust this, whole-heartedly.

so, lead on.

i will follow.

balefire.

i was standing in a line yesterday, watching the rain fall from under a restaurant awning, and talking with a friend about what my travels mean to me. i know what i am meant to do in this life, i always have, since i was a child. and yet, somehow, i always managed to say to myself: "i will do this thing, i will be this person, someday."

the days went by, and my dreams were always ahead of me, while i focused on the little tasks at hand. little tasks that distracted me from my purpose. little tasks that filled my hands but not my heart.

those little tasks are gone now -- burned away even to the ashes. and i'm free and my days are all in front of me, and my purpose is clear again. everything is a mystery and that is delightful to me. i am walking forward and all that i need to accomplish my purpose in life will be given to me. is already being given to me.

every day is a transformation.

i am blessed by the sun and the moon and the friends i have who smile upon me and encourage me forward. you are all the blanket around my shoulders when i am cold, and the warmth in my heart that makes me smile when i am standing solitary.

because i will never be alone again.

the past has been burnt away and yet i am not empty. i am filled with hopes and dreams, and the love of people who have come to be my heart's family.

no more yesterdays, and no more somedays.

today, forever.



thank you all.